Grieving Muma

This is my journey surviving each day and coping with the grief after the death of my nine and a half month old baby, due to pneumococcal septicaemia in July 2019. This is a story about the senseless, horrific and ugly side of life.

I am inspired to raise awareness about the symptoms of sepsis and raise funds for vital research so that no more innocent babies have to die. Heidi’s death will not be for nothing. Please take the time to read my page about the symptoms and signs of sepsis, it could help save a life one day.

  • Early days

    July 21, 2019 by

    I knew she was gone. Looking down at her little body on the hospital bed, with all the tubes and wires and machines making horrible noises, I knew she was gone. I was told three times that she might not survive and I didn’t believe the doctors any time. I said “Not my baby, she’s… Read more

  • Things I can’t do now.

    September 18, 2019 by

    My old job.   I was an energetic, positive, motivational sales trainer.   I could retain huge amounts of information, organise, plan and multitask. Now I put the porridge oats in the freezer and have no idea how they got there.   I can barely muster the energy to smile, let alone engage and inspire a room full of people.   I have… Read more

  • The ambulance

    September 14, 2019 by

    Buckled up, Blue lights, Here we go We’re going to get you to the best place Off to get the special help you need You’re going to be ok Just hold on You’re doing so well Keep fighting  You can do this You’re so strong  Don’t give up Not long to go now Everything’s going… Read more

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